For what seems like forever, I have attempted to truly trust God loves me. I think a ton of it comes from not having a dad growing up. I never had any dad child connection, so I never had the opportunity to see direct what a dad should be. At the point when you consolidate that with experiencing childhood in a congregation that focused on works over relationship, you get me: a person who experiences difficulty in any cozy connections, particularly with God.
I was listening today to a digital broadcast, and one of the speakers read a Bible section that draws out the explanation I battle. It’s 1 John 4:16:
“Thus we know and depend on the affection God has for us.
God is love. Whoever daily routines in adoration lives in God, and God in him.”
My difficulty? The part about depending on God’s affection.
I thoroughly understand God’s affection. I’ve educated it. I’ve lectured on it. I’ve guided individuals about it. I truly accept that God cherishes His kids. Yet, do I depend on it? That is a totally different inquiry.
I experienced childhood in a congregation where information was valued, and experience was peered down on. We were one of those Pentecostal holy places, where they were acting insane, talking in tongues and dangling from the crystal fixtures. We were “individuals of the book,” and we esteemed knowing Scripture regardless of anything else.
There isn’t anything amiss with knowing Scripture. Each Christian has to know and cherish the Bible. We should all make them comprehend of essential Bible lessons. Be that as it may, information can never replace relationship. Sooner or later, we as a whole need to go from a position of thinking about God’s adoration to depending on His affection.
How does that occur? I don’t know I know. I don’t believe it’s an interaction that fits 5 stages, or 7 keys. It’s presumably unique for everyone. I’m certain God utilizes the apparatuses He typically does: supplication, Scripture, companions, conditions. Be that as it may, we don’t look to those instruments to do anything for us.
More than anything, possibly figuring out how to depend on God’s affection is a difference in standpoint. God needs to shower His adoration on us. Indeed, He showers His affection on us. However, we miss it, since we’re looking elsewhere.
I realize I’ve made considerable progress toward encountering His adoration as a truth of life. Be that as it may, I’ve actually got far to go…